Emo Me

Last night, i couldn't sleep. i've been thinking. thinking very hard. For the two years i've been working. this is the first time i've worrying about money. Not that i don't have any but i need to learn how to spend it wisely. Because the problem is i am such an impulse buyer (bad bad me).

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There is something bothering me these few days. I went to the international book fair the other day and my friend told me that this girl is angry with me. She said i am sombong, berlagak bla bla bla. This girl is the one i saw at carrefour a few months back. Not that i didn't want to talk to her, it just that i had a feeling that she doesn't like me much although we have been friends for the past 3 years.

First of all, i think she is intimidated by me. (Even if i did, thrust me it's not on purpose). Actually my point is, back in university, i face a lot of peer pressure. And i know all of us face it back in school days too. That girl didn't like the fact that i like Blink 182. I can still remember the conversation we held 2 years ago.

Girl: why do you like rock song? It's crap and noisy.

Me: well at least most of the songs lyrics had meanings (about life, failure etc) not just love song.

Girl: Can you change into other different genre.

Me: (In my mind) HELLO......!! you think i am 6 year old kid ar?! with no choice of music yet.

Me: No, this is what i like.

Me:Why? did i ever pasang it too loud that you cannot sleep. As far as i know, not even my roommate had heard my songs before. (I'm wearing earphone)

Girl: No lah

Me: So you listen to siti nurhaliza bla bla also no use, the lyrics are all about love too...

Girl: sengih macam kerang

Me: satisfied face.

Another situation:

Girl2: wah you are so berlagak? want to bring beg tarik-tarik. (trolley bag)

Me: (In my mind) uhhh, like this also consider berlagak ar? I thought bag is just a necessity.

Me: Have you been to KLIA? Do you know how far it is to go to point a to point b in KLIA? Tarik sampai tangan pun tercabut.

Girl2: sengih macam kerang busuk.

Me: Satisfied face.

This girl2 never even been on a flight before. And you think you have the guts to tell me that i am berlagak just because i have those kind of bags.

this girl1 really think that i have no identity is it?! I never NEVER even preached my taste of music is much better just because i listen to rock music. Music is universal and it depends on your personal taste. Why are you making such a fuss about it?

this girl1 even comment about my style of dressing. Then i asked her back, why am i walking around naked? No? That it's none of your business.

BODOH, stupid, moron!

I really hate bodoh sombong people!

When i first enter my uni (a local one), some of the students thought that people from sabah and sarawak are backwards, jakun bla bla bla. They thought that people like us from Borneo never seen the outside world before. They imagine we live in rumah panjang with all the culture thingy you see on tv recarding tourism.

They were actually surprised that i am good in english. I got anugerah dekan ok. And i am not intimidated just because i am different from them. And i am not afraid of being alone. (eat alone, go to library alone) they are irritated because i don't need them but they NEED me.

The most stupid question that people ask me so many times:

Moron: So you are from sabah?

Me: yes

moron: so you go to semenanjung by plane?

Me: No, saya kayuh sampan ke sini.

Oklah not all people are ignorant and moron. Some are open minded. For those who are not as i mentioned above, thank you very much for your wisdom and knowledge, i truly appreciate it that you act like a civilized person.

So you guys out there:

Never be afraid to be different. You like Green Day? It's ok. You like Backstreet song? It's ok too. We are unique just like everyone else.